Earth's Cry - Alaine

Round and round and back and forth we go
Arguing above the lands of our great fathers gone before
Sewing seeds of deception and all we reap is war
Tearing down our brothers fighting in the name of the lord
While we kill each other

I... I... I... I'm breaking down theses walls
That only divide and separate us
Why can't you hear the earth's cry

One by one we watch them falling down
As we join our hearts in love together turn it all around
Rise above corruption, hate, destruction,
End this fear and greed
Movin forward in a spirit
A spirit of peace and unity

Oh, I... I... I... I'm breaking down these walls
That only divide and separate us
Why can't you hear the Earth's cry

Brothers, sisters realize
Jah has blessed us all with choice
What will you do, what will you choose
If you refuse to live the right
What will be you alibi
On that day when we stand
Before the Most High

I'm breaking down these walls
That only divide and separate
Why can't you hear
Can't you hear
Ohhhhhh
I'm breaking down these walls
These walls that only divide and separate us
Why can't you hear the earth's cry
Earth's crying out
Earth is crying out
Ohhh
Crying out
Yeaaa
Can't you hear
Ohhhhh can't you hear
Earth cry

Some are open....others are closed

Have you ever been handed an opportunity that you were really excited about but God has told you no? I am in that situation right now. About 2 weeks ago, my conductor at York offered a really awesome trip idea to me. She said I would have to audition for it, but she was sure that I would get in. Well, this trip is to Mexico. Beautiful Mexico. I would be singing in a music festival with potential solos being handed out. the piece of music being sung is Handel's Messiah. An amazing work. I originally thought that God was allowing me to use these opportunities, but he has brought a better one up in front of my eyes. When I thought that one trip would be enough, God gives me something else to look at. I have the opportunity to audition for the Nathaniel Dett Chorale. One of the greatest Afrocentric groups in the Canada. I also have the opportunity to join with the Toronto Mass Choir. A lot of praying has to go into this one!

Keep me in mind and pray that I make the right decision.

Lifeline

I have this sinking feeling
Something's weighing me down
I am completely saturated
The waves are crashing closer
My feet already drowned
Doing the thing I said I hated

They've been swimming in the wrong water
Now they're pulling me down
But I am clinging to you, never letting go
'Cos I know that you'll lift me out

[Chorus]
Have your way here
Keep me afloat 'cos I know I'll sink without you
Take this ocean of pain that is mine
Throw me a lifeline

Wake up feeling convicted
I know something's not right
Re-acquaint my knees with the carpet
I have to get this out
'Cos it's obstructing you and I
Dry up the seas that keep us parted

'Cos they've been swimming in the wrong waters
And now they're pulling me down
But I am clinging to you, never letting go
'Cos I know that you are gonna pull me out

[Chorus]

They've been swimming in the wrong waters
And now they're pulling me down
But I am clinging to you, never letting go
'Cos I know, 'cos I know

[Chorus]

Learning is sometimes hard...who knew?

I love the fact that I'm in school but I forgot the amount of work and time management it takes to keep it up. It is only by the will of God that I am doing well right now. God has placed me back in school and he is going to lead through to the end this time. I am so amazing at the path that he has chosen for me to be on. Learning has never come easy to me and the fact that I'm already doing well is God's doing. What an awesome opportunity he has me in. I have just organized myself for school. I put tabs in my binder, clipping certain things together, and it's all coming together right now. I pray that God will bless on my learning path and I can't wait to see where he takes me!

School and Stuff

There is so much that I should be thankful for. I love school! That is one of them! From the second I stepped back onto campus, I knew that I was in the right place. I have had a sense of peace every time I walk into the Student Centre. I love being here and know this is where God wants me to be. He made it possible for me to come back and finish my degree. I'm learning to follow the voice of God and his leading in my life. It was a rough weekend for me in some respect but it was also really good to be freed from a lot of things too!

Thank you God that I am in school and that I have a chance to experience what you have for me!

Rescued From Vicious Attack

As the weekend was approaching I was getting really excited! We, the Ignition Leadership Team had a retreat in July and that was full of just planning. Making sure that what we were doing was for God and not what we thought Ignition should be. That was in July. Now is September. We felt like we needed a getaway to find out more about each other and bond a bit more. Layla came and picked me up and we went grocery shopping. Go grocery shopping with Layla. She can push a cart really well! Kevin got us a sick car for the ride. A Chevy Suburban. It was so amazing! The drive was so good! We went out for Thai food and gelato at La Paloma! SO GOOD! When we arrived at the cottage we just settled in as much as we could and hung out. Waking up on Saturday was interesting. From the second I woke up, my spirit didn't feel right. I had a really heavy heart in the morning and didn't know what the cause was. I had a strong urge to cry. I have a feeling I must have had some sort of weird dream but I can't remember it. I decided to leave it alone and go make breakfast for everyone. The morning and afternoon were great! We went swimming in the freezing, cold lake and in the sauna. (We're at the Watsons cottage by the way. So Beautiful!) Lounging was so great! There was nothing but amazing nature around us that it was so hard to ignore the outside. I had a great nap on Saturday afternoon. Around 5pm on Saturday afternoon, it felt like someone was grabbing my heart and squeezing the life out of it. Not physically, but spiritually. I went outside to talk to Layla. I shared with her how I was feeling and we screamed out loud to get rid of pent up energy, good and bad. I felt as though I was being attacked in my spirit. Like I was trying to fight something but wasn't winning. I felt defeated and tired but the attacks kept coming. I felt my body fold in on itself. I felt as though I was a little child hiding from something. Even when I was outside I felt as though I was being stifled. I had no space. My heart was hurting so much. Layla started to pray for me. She prayed that I would have grace for myself. I went to bed that night a bit calm in my heart. the next day (Sunday) we got together as a group and shared something about ourselves that the others didn't know. Not silly things, but characteristics that were not noticable if not said. After that, is when I felt free.