So over the past few weeks I've been thinking about a LOT of things. I'm going to make a list and I'll explain all them as I go along....
1) Falling in love with Jesus again
So I was on the bus last 2 Wednesdays ago and I had just dropped my nephew off at school. I was really tired and didn't want to do anything that day. I started thinking about the desire I have to get married and share my life with someone here on Earth, then God spoke to me, right there on the bus! It was actually kind of cool/scary. I though that someone on the bus had said it. It was that clear. So I looked around and saw no one who sounded like what I just heard. I remember having that feeling in my stomach. The one that all girls know when they see that someone, they become weak at the knees. I got the butterflies in my stomach, blushing red cheeks, I couldn't stop smiling! I didn't know what had come over me until I got home. I realized that I HAD FALLEN IN LOVE WITH JESUS...AGAIN! HE said to me that I will get married soon (what is God's idea of soon? I don't know :) but I need to trust him to deliver on that promise. He is showing me what it is like to be loved so that I can share that love when he sends that person into my life. The words to the song are below. Listen to the song and read the words at the same time. This blew me away!
He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.
Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.
Yeah, He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves.
So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way
He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves.
2) What is purpose?
Purpose: the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used, etc. (from dictionary.com). I have been thinking about what my purpose is in my life. I still don't fully know, but God is starting to stir something in my heart that I have never felt before. It is really exciting to be taken on this journey. It is also really hard because I believe I'm starting to discover what my holy discontent is. This is going to be a wild ride with God that I don't want to miss!
3) What does God's love look like in my life?
As you can tell, I've been doing a lot of thinking. That is how I do things. I have to think them through before putting them into actions. I can count many things in my life where God has laid his perfect love on me. A few of those things are my best friend Melissa, being able to go back to school, a passion for seeing youth use their gifts to glorify God. There is a lot more that can go in this section but that would take forever to type out.
4) My involvement in ministry
So a couple Sundays ago, I was thinking about what my involvement in ministry looked like. I had been thinking about this for a while (there I go...thinking again :). I am doing too much ministry-wise and need to cut down on my "list". I decided to re-evaluate what was going on in my life and cut out what needed to be cut out. I have a new priority list, and this one is from God this time!
If there is anymore, I'll just write another blog after this one! :) I'm also going to share a song with you. Click on the the title of the blog to see the video attached. That is the video. The words will be in this blog entry.
Thanks for taking the time to read!
