Sick

I'm not feeling very well today. I'm feeling quite sick today. I don't know if I'll be able to be at Roots tonight which really bugs me because I was looking forward to seeing the girls tonight.

Please pray for me.

Thanks.

Rough...but God always brings me through!

I was at an Ignition meeting last night and was amazing at what we did. We didn't plan anything, hardly talked about stuff connected to Ignition itself, or took any minutes. We spent the evening sharing with each other what God is doing in our lives and how we are feeling...truthfully. One thing that we did at our weekend away was tell each other who we really were. Doing that allowed us to become closer with one another and with God. Knowing that everyone in that group knows what I have gone through makes me feel at home, makes me feel comfortable. I am able to cry in front of them and feel okay to do so.

I had a rough night last night. I didn't know how to say what I was feeling but I just opened my mouth and let it all the words pour out...that's all I could do.

Praying for each other and for the Ignition night is something that is so important at times like this and that is exactly what we did. We were able to pray and lay our hands on each other. I don't know why, but the physical act of laying of the hands is really important to me. It makes me like they are there. I felt worthy, loved, cherished....thank you for praying those words over me Layla.

On the way home, Shannon played a song for me by Jason Morant called Hosanna. We sat in my driveway to listen to the rest of the song. You need to listen to this song. It a very powerful song and I can't help but close my eyes and worship to it! You know the drill. Click the title of this entry to listen to this song. It is to clips of Saving Private Ryan. You don't need to watch the video but instead listen to the song with your eyes closed.

Thanks for reading.

Diva

So I was walking along St. Clair West avenue and I saw the greatest store with the most beautiful dresses in it and I want to own it! Guess what it's called? DIVA! The perfect name for a store and it looked so diva too!

I want to buy all the dresses they have! I found my new favourite store!

Today....WOW!

So, I had a job interview today. Now, this job isn't a permanent one which great because I'm not looking to work here for a long time. Get some extra cash for school and Christmas and things like that. I am going to working for a company that is parntered with Google to sell the ad space on the Google research page. It's strictly commission for now, but as a work I might be able to start with a salary as well. The really awesome thing about this job is the manager said that by just working a couple of hours a day, I may some sweet cash. Thank you Lord for providing this opportunity for me.

As promised, I have a picture of my other fish, Benny, he is a betta as well. I love my fish! Here he is! Isn't he wonderful?

Thanks for reading!

Studying

I'm finding it really hard to stay focused on my studying for school while the strike is on. I'm trying really hard to get things done, but all I can do it procrastinate.

Other than that....I BOUGHT A NEW FISH! It was really exciting. I had one that looked just like about 3 months ago and then the girls I was babysitting killed it by making the water too cold. His name was Rocky. I got another and named it Rocky II. The name fit really well! I love my fish! I'll show you my other one another time!

I have to get back to studying now! Pray that I get this work done please :)

Thanks again for reading!

Things this week

On Thursday, November 6th, I found out that the strike at York had started. I've been at home for the past few days doing some extra studying and pleasure reading. It is so nice to have time to yourself like that, but in a situation like this, it can get a bit tricky! I have a lot of work to do and now I have the time to do it but at the same time, the strike could be harmful to my year at York. If this goes too long then they can tack extra time on at the end of the school year or cut the December break short and I don't want that! I love having a month off in December!

Anyways, other than that, I wrote another song and I'm really excited about this one! I hope you like it!

What Do I have to offer?

(Verse 1)
All my life I’ve been given second chances
Some of those I’ve taken for granted
I feel I’ve taken and I’ve wasted
Everything that I hold dear to my heart
I’ve mistreated

(Pre-chorus)
But now I turn to you and ask these questions,

(Chorus)
What do I have to offer you, my Lord?
Is there something that’s missing?
I need some direction for this life
Cause I don’t know which way to go

(Verse 2)
I’ve lost track of all the times you saved me
And a simple thank just doesn’t seem enough
I’m giving you all I am to you
So take it and use it
Whichever way you need to

My Song

I don't know if I've shared my song with you yet. I wrote this song when I was at the Next> retreat. I didn't know what I was writing it for but I was being nudged to write it at that moment. I started writing and as God started telling the words to write down, I could feel the song starting in my head. My friend Rebecca is helping me to write the actual music part of the song and so far, I've ad goosebumps everytime I've heard it. God has given me words to write down and I can't hold them in any longer. They long to flow out of me because of the amazing power of God that washed over me so many times. Within the past couple of weeks, my feelings have been hurt by something that had happened, but I had to do something in order for this to be resolved. I confronted the problem and God completely healed the situation. I am so thankful for the the way He handled it! Here are the words to my song. I hope you are encouraged! Thanks for reading!

I Wait For You

Chorus
I wait for you
To lift me up in my need
I wait for you
To hold me close to your heart
I wait for you
For your healing power
I wait for you

Verse 1
As I listen to the clock
Ticking louder than before
I wonder where all the time has gone
The time I would sit and wait
Wait to hear your voice

Chorus

Verse 2
When I look back in life
And see where you hand has been
I can hardly believe the times
All the times you showed your glory
I can’t wait to see Your glory again

Chorus

Bridge
From the ends of the earth
I call to you
My heart grows faint
Lead me to the rock
That is higher than I

Chorus
End